Friday, October 31, 2003
I'm going to be 58 very soon and it may seem obvious to say but I have never been 58 before - I say that because I have no idea as to what the norm is - how much energy, how much tiredness - what are the norms. And what point in norms anyway? When I was 20, 30 or 40 I did not feel that I was in uncharted waters - maybe I just got on with doing my stuff. Even at 40 I did not feel lost. It's not really that I feel lost - just totally alone in the sense that there are no general rules - no one has been me and lived my life.
Some times I feel so tired, like I want to spend the weekend asleep. But ( yes the but!) I work all week, feel knackered by 9 each working day and if I spend the weekend in bed then - literally - where am I? I might as well be a zombie!
My big mistake was reading Sartre! Not true of course, I had lost any belief in a god some time before becoming aware of Existentialism. Sartre did make sense to me although I was floundering for many years until I discovered humanistic psychology which deals very much with the same issues as Sartre and offers a way for each of us to develop our own path.
Some times I feel so tired, like I want to spend the weekend asleep. But ( yes the but!) I work all week, feel knackered by 9 each working day and if I spend the weekend in bed then - literally - where am I? I might as well be a zombie!
My big mistake was reading Sartre! Not true of course, I had lost any belief in a god some time before becoming aware of Existentialism. Sartre did make sense to me although I was floundering for many years until I discovered humanistic psychology which deals very much with the same issues as Sartre and offers a way for each of us to develop our own path.
Sunday, October 26, 2003
I still have a few minor buglets to sort out with SuSE but nothing serious. I still have to boot into Windows to run my scanner which can be a pain. I have yet to find an FTP program for uploading files but these things will get resolved. What is clear though is that installing programs is nowhere near as straightforward as it is in Windows. Even so, SuSE Linux & KDE are a pleasure to use.
